For the Sake of It

I would have posted at the weekend, but fate seems to have driven a wedge between me and absolutely anything interesting or inspiring as of late. A resentment springs on me as I see other people's infinitely more interesting lives but since everyone else is a cunt, the resentment soon evaporates into nothing but apathy.

Recently I've been thinking about my future: love life, job...overall destiny. I've welcomed these thoughts as someone welcomes yellow hemorrhoids, however, they are a welcome respite from the doom-laden thoughts that normally occupy my mind. I've been thinking about forcing a few ideas I've had on, first in short story form and then translating them into script form. A lot of what's in my mind idea-wise has centered around Victorian London and the events of that century. It's an era of poverty, sepia toned evil and horror that greatly interests me. It just strikes me as odd how ideas mutate.

Firstly they start off as an image, a scene or a particular sort of character that you'd like to see. The rest is all added on over sometimes an extremely long amount of time. My comedy idea has been in the offing for 4 years. First it was to mirror the great things in all the comedies that I like: the sense of male interaction and camaraderie, the absurd and the banter. As I grew older the idea matured and evolved from a Young Ones copycat to a self-sustaining comedy which grew from my experiences and surroundings. The dialogue wasn't simply insults and farce anymore, at times the situations now border onto Comedy-Drama, I'm just not too sure which route to follow. The characters become less gag-machines, more real, finding humour from everywhere, rather than interaction with those who surround them being the only basis for laughs.

I expect to be productive with my ideas before Uni begins again, or i'll continue in the cycle of being to lazy to write while having the time and wanting to write when I don't. Motivation is the key as to whether i'm going to get out of this rut.

Unmotivated

JPH